Ah it is Douglas Adams who said something entirely brilliant along the lines of if the universe were ever to be figured out or explained that it would immediately be taken away and replaced with something far more complex and bizarre, and that some believe this has already happened. It would seem that I have defined what it is like so it has been replaced with something far more confusing and bothersome. Today while in the shower, I felt the need to have it cold. Not freezing drizzle cold, or even was in the refrigerator cold, just a luke warm bordering on colder than that. However when I came to place my hair under this cold water. The temperature difference just above my occipital ridge cause constriction of the blood vessels within my head, this caused a sensation that is previously unknown. It also caused my knees to give way, only for me to catch myself half way to bottom of the tub. I am shaken and nervous and am more convinced that I am at that time where it can not be denied and that I will have to seek medical attention.
My husband confronted me today about having something going on and not telling him. I eventually told him and he is of the notion that my parents need to be informed and that testing should start immediately. Why does that frighten me?
Monday, July 15, 2002