There is no direct yerning in my soul at this moment. No aching need. I feel almost healed, temporarily free from the symptoms of emotional unrest. My body and mind sorted somthing out whilst I slept the other day. Apparently it was what I needed although I am not entirely certain what it was that was sorted out. I drempt of being alone. . . with someone, of being alone with my desire, yet I was not permitted the chance. Everything I may have wanted could be handed to me if we could but find the time without our families.. . Our families were always keeping us in our familiar roles, keeping us from exploring what we would have definatley explored without their constant presence. Apparently the desires family was more so present than mine and my parents more so than my husband and son
Wednesday, July 10, 2002