why can't I publish this? Is it wrong? is it only a further self deceptive lie?
is it beacuse someone is likely to read it and do something?
isn't that the point?
then why do I fight it?
why don't I give in myself? to go tell them what is going on?
seek the help
end the bruising
end the confusion
ok I give up I'll publish in the morning
Friday, July 12, 2002