You know that space between sleep and awake? that is where everything was gained and lost. I am left uncertain of all the things I was certain of and pondering things that no one else seems to have experienced. What about those utterly familiar "alien landscapes" or the picture of the tree in the wind where I could see the seprate molecules, like tiny rectangles all perpetually in motion, locked into a continually changing shape? What do they mean? Why are they so vidid yet unreachable? why are they filling my thoughts now, when I barely gave them a second glance then? I mean after the fact. I know I stared wide eyed unable to look away when I was there, and yet it didn't seem odd then. Merely breath takingly beautiful. . . I can not forget, but I can not wholey remember
Tuesday, July 09, 2002