ok to be honest this blog is very one sided. It is meant to be the inner turmoil and the record of that which I dare not tell others. . . funny that it would be on a public blog then huh? but I thought maybe to set it straight or at least a little less one sided I would get on here just to say that I am feeling peachy at the moment. Life seems mostly good and aside from small phantom pains that come and go I seem to be doing decent physically. So this is to set the record straight or at least firmly wrong.