I have no burning feelings in my soul in which to discuss tonight. Only a deafening silence which is begining to block out the painfully loud sounds of those around me. I crave pain. I crave the palpale lasting sensation that brings about a different state of mind and blocks out the silence. I wonder why it would only be pain that would do that? why can't other sensations such as touch, massage, silk bubble baths do that? actually come to think of it when it was only a dull roar sex could drown it out. (explains a lot) but I can still here it now even in the midst of orgasm. only shear sharpe pain can drown it now. perhaps that is why I beg for such sexual interation?
Saturday, October 19, 2002