the one after care more care less is about Mandy and how I ache at her current situation and the guilt I have about putting her there before she was ready
It was one of those nights, is about my relationship with God. I am in pain, and I call out to him, I curse at him for not being there for me, and then how is is there for me but how I find it only a torture, I seach for understanding, ending with me jumping into unknown faith and understanding healing
these things shouldn't be here now, is about the blackouts
I died so many years ago, is about a conflict with myself. IT is the battle within my self not to give in to the blackouts, and how I can give up my body to them and still not find my sweet realease. that's when I tell it to come and get me but I won't go willingly, and then the I'll be waiting is how it responds to my threat
untill it has finished feasting on my soul
Tuesday, November 12, 2002