Flagpole Sitta by Harvey Danger (pics)
I had visions , I was in them
I was looking into the mirror
To see a little bit clearer
Rottenness and evil in me
Fingertips have memories
Mine can't forget the curves of your body
And when i feel a bit naughty
I run it up the flagpole and see who salutes
(but no one ever does )
I'm not sick but i'm not well
And I'm so hot cause I'm in hell
Been around the world and found
That only stupid people are breeding
The cretins cloning and feeding
And I don't even own a tv
Put me in the hospital for nerves
And then they had to commit me
You told them all i was crazy
They cut off my legs now I'm an amputee , god damn you
I'm not sick but I'm not well
And I'm so hot cause i'm in hell
I'm not sick but I'm not well
And it's a sin to live so well
I wanna publish zines
And rage against machines
I wanna pierce my tongue
It doesn't hurt , it feels fine
The trivial sublime
I'd like to turn off time
And kill my mind
You kill my mind
Paranoia paranoia
Everybody's coming to get me
Just say you never met me
I'm going underground with the moles
Hear the voices in my head
I swear to god it sounds like they're snoring
But if you're bored then you're boring
The agony and the irony , they're killing me
I'm not sick but I'm not well
And I'm so hot cause i'm in hell
I'm not sick but I'm not well
And it's a sin to live so well
With trust as an issue in my life it is rather ironic that I am doing and online diary; but anonimity is my friend and the only reason I can say any of this. Sometimes I keep even this kind of stuff from me; blocking what is painful and saying all is fine. I agree with my sister; fine is a tragic word in the english language. "How are you doing?" "Fine" Translation - life is more then I can bear today and I'm trying to tread water.
That's one of the things I have the hardest time with; I believe in the power of positive confession, but when I'm treading water, I cann't seem to pass up that life preserver, and say "I'm fine."
Monday, December 01, 2003