Had another break through (emotionally that is) I think. Physically my body is starting to fall apart again, and I can feel the times when "it" sneaks up on me. You know the "it" that I created this blog to keep track of. . . Which it doesn't. But anyway, this breakthough actually occurred because of a visit I had with a massage therapist who is very into energy work. I think most of the session was spent talking with very little hands on massage. The things she said really resonated with me and put into words things I already knew, but didn't really know how to admit to myself. weird how we keep secrets from ourselves. I don't suppose I would have handled it well if I'd had known about it right away. Still I'm not sure that lieing to myself has really saved me any trouble. Anyways what was I talking about? Oh yeah the breakthrough. I somewhat get the feeling that I have a walk in. Which pretty much means that when I died I briefly intermingled with another entity and pulled part of it back in with me. Now perhaps I was meant to trade with this entity and let it have the body for whatever purposes were previously arranged or perhaps it came to help me grow strong again. . . I tend to think the latter of the two. But now my spirit is strong again and there seems to be some turbulence between the two entities trying to share the same space. If one of them doesn't leave they may cause the body to be inhabitable for both, which leads to some very interesting lines of thought. I have been pondering this for over a week now, delving into myself to find out exactly what is going on. I think there may be some answers but I'm not certain of any of them yet. It's an odd hypothesis and maybe fanciful thinking. Intriguing tho.
Monday, July 19, 2004