I'm having a pitty party. A big ol'fartsey pitty party for myself. I don't want to do any of it. I don't want to have to think about it. I don't want to have to fight it. I don't want to put in all the effort and not see the rewards. I want it all decided for me, only I want it all to be my decision. I want to run away from it all, only I want it to all be here when I come home. I want everything to be different, only I don't want anything to change. And it's not fair that I can't have it all right here, right now!