The physical body is not adept at dealing with eternal knowledge. Knowledge of how things can be and not be in the same istant is just physically unbelieveable and being still in a physical nature (I think) I am not adept at handling such information. I have a deep understanding of how it works while still being completely baffled by it in an unexplainable way. It is in a rather cliche way "an engima wraped in a cunundrum" or seems remarkably like "a redundant oxymoron" and while I imagine that I create the world around me I wonder why I don't make it perfect, but even before the question finishes forming in my mind I know the answer. It's because perfect is boring. would you watch a movie in which nothing ever went wrong? where there was no drama? no comedy? After all all drama and all comedy are based on imperfection. would it be funny if slapstick didn't have people messing up physically? would there be any drama if nothing went horribly wrong: "Anna, I'm saw the doctor and I only have 6 months to live"? and although I am exceptionally grateful that my life is not as dramatic as those in movies or comedies I would also feel bored if there were no drama or comedy in my life. I guess that is why I create an imperfect world, an imperfect me. I'm just more interesting that way.
Thursday, June 05, 2003